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Merry Christmas and 2010 revisited
Merry Christmas!

I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday. For those that are not some form of Christian and/or for those that don't celebrate, I still hope you're having a wonderful winter season. We all still have the New Year to look forward to...

Still working for the trading firm. There seems to be talks of bonuses here and there. I have yet to hear official word and have not seen any in the bank account. :P Don't really think I deserve a "bonus" persay, but every time I hear the clerks talk about these bonuses, it's as if it's an entitlement. We all work hard and try to overcome our own personal obstacles, granted. Fair enough. But it's a "bonus", not just another part of your salary. And bonuses that are a quarter of your salary is... almost ridiculous. Either way, should I see this legendary bonus, I will be thankful and grateful.

Also still working theater. This weekend is the last. Closing weekend and we're apparently sold out. Bittersweet. I shall miss the 'moon. I hope I continue to get the chance to work there again in some capacity. I shall miss a lot, but am thankful for the continued inspiration, imagination, innovation... (most of the i things and of course many of the a, b, f, m, and p things as well).

2010 brings new opportunities. 2010 brings hope. 2010 brings... life.

I'm riding a wave. Wherever this wave takes me in the next few months, I shall take it. Ride the surf, both it's calm as well as it's violent. However, there shall come a point in the new year where I will need to take charge of my life and make important life changing decisions. I've let life dictate my experiences with a little guidance from myself - my idioms and world views. 2010, I will live life. I will set achievable goals and set probable paths to reach them.

I don't know what I want in/from life, but I've lived long enough to have a better idea of what I can actually do. There are things I have wanted to do growing up. There are things I'm good at and things I'm not so good at.

I wish I had an aptitude for moving up into more responsible positions within the firm; however, I know deep down I don't have a strong enough passion to make it through those terribly brutal days. I enjoy learning about it and want to understand all of it. It's a great thing to have under your belt. But I'm pretty sure I don't have an aptitude to continue past my current position. Either way, I will continue to learn everything I can. And again, I'm going to ride this wave indefinitely. Huzzah for good pay, insurance, and benefits.

As for "the arts", I'm still at a loss of what exactly I'd like to do. There are just so many things I'd love to do. I love theater. I love film. I love television.

I'm working on something specific for 2010. It incorporates a little theater as well as television. It's more of a "doer" position then I've done in a really long time. It's also a lot more to chew in terms of chutzpah and an aspect of producing.

I'll definitely be out of my comfort zone when trying to get out there and make things work well. I'm completely socially awkward due to my shyness and have this terrible yearning for an acute aspie clinical diagnosis of sorts. Yeah, talk about social nervousness.

Anyway, I digress. Should things work out, I'll have not only successfully completed the task (more or less), but I will also know if it's something I'd like to do in the future. And I'll have learned which aspects of these specific tasks am I good at or not good at. What do I not want to do again? What can I work on? How can I improve? What's my next step? Etc. I have no idea what I'm getting myself into, but wish me luck.

I welcome any words of encouragement, advice, and constructive criticism in the realm of "arts and entertainment". Specifically, any words on writing, producing, directing, acting, film-making (in all it's capacities), special effects, stunts, acrobatics and gymnastics ("proper", in lieu of the rise in parkour interests), puppets (particularly modern bunraku), shadows (a la "Camp Nowhere" style), busking/street-performing (especially obtaining licences and legalities within Chicago and it's surround suburbs), lights (theater as well as film), sound (theater, film, special events), and music (composing, special events, DJing).

And when I mean all aspects... I mean all aspects - from creativity to technical. Know something about software, let me know. Know something artistic that you loved seeing, but don't know what the heck it was or how it was done, I'd still love to hear about it.

If you have family, friends, or friends-of-friends that are in "the business" and have any interesting stories, I'd love to hear them. I've had my share of grip work and production assistant work, and I have a pretty good idea of the whole "extra" work whatnot, but I would still love to hear any stories in that realm from those willing to share.

Honestly, I would love to hear any stories in general. You can even chew my out and tell me how much of an idealistic dreamer I am as long as you tell me WHY you think this. I love philosophy, but I'm tired of questions. Tell me something. Tell me a story. Engage my mind and spirit.

As usual, if you've read all of this and gotten this far, many thanks. Cheers!

Current Mood: introspectiveish?
Current Music: christmas

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